it's been a seriously long time. I didn't mean to leave it this long. I haven't done pretty much anything in terms of creativity or self-actualization... I'm unemployed and I really do not have any prospects. Everything sort of feels like it all got worse all at once and it overwhelmed the shit out of me.

biggest thing was that Tiger died at the end of January. it really blindsided me. he was with me for 12 years through everything and then one night he was gone. in hindsight, there was definitely something wrong going on with him during his last few months/weeks. it tears me up that I didn't do all I could to figure out what. I don't know what I could have done. I don't think I'll ever get over it. I seriously don't think I could have had a better cat than him, and he will forever be remembered as the best thing in my life during the period he was in it. June 2013 - January 2026
initially, I was going to write a page of hundreds of "I miss when you ___." I didn't want to forget anything about him. I decided against it because I don't think I would have been able to get through writing it

I don't have any good techo stuff for the greater part of the year, really. feel like I've been just totally comatose pretty much.

just an update. I'm planning on redoing a lot of the index and homepage (maybe more) completely later this month/year/decade