i keep thinking about this guy who was sooo mortified he thought i was a girl when he first met me (he thinks i'm cis). its just so strange the way people will just trip over themselves to apologize if they don't know you're transgender. and also the way that he acted like he did something totally horrible to me, too. like being seen as a girl if you're a guy is world ending, or some bullshit. i don't know.

ebay shopping is horrible 'cause i have no money. especially with shirts. everything i see that i really like some asshole is selling for $200+. anyone who buys an old shirt for that much is crazy stupid. and a poser. or just rich. i can't tell which is worse

didn't really do a whole lot today 'cause i was shaking with pain. some kind of torture.

i just watched pale cocoon and it definitely scratched that same itch blame! did. i think its a lot more hopeful than blame!, though. the atmosphere is a lot less oppressive and bleak overall. i love seeing an alternate future where 2000s tech sensibilities lasted into the far future, especially if its apocalyptic. those endless megastructures are probably one of the scariest concepts to me. humanity's greed will outlast us all