art fight is getting super close! i usually have fun with it, but this year, idk. i've always kind of been dogshit at making characters (i really mostly draw random middle aged or old people) and its always felt kind of forced. i'm gonna try and really think of something before i have to rush again. i'm not feeling any of my previous characters, really.

RIP mangadex! god, i guess its good i read blame! when i did. so much shit got hit and so much of it is just niche as hell. i wonder how many works are going to be completely lost because of this. fuck publishers and fuck dmca. all of this just to funnel people into their own paid apps. oh yes, i'm sure that's going to work wonders, trying to send a bunch of people who used a perfect centralized free website into a monotized phone app. not to mention people who live outside of japan or america that can't get it at all. every event like this makes me support piracy more. i suppose i'll go back to looking for individual fan translations.

in other news, i think i got heat exhaustion or something on saturday. who knew being outside in 100 degree weather for 7 hours was a bad idea? i've been getting awful headaches all week. of course this is also the week my cat decides to freak out meowing all day and most of the night wanting to go outside... i wonder what he'd be like if he was never let outside in the first place. what a mistake.

i think i need to go on more walks. longer solo walks. i've been so negative lately, i need to just walk. then maybe i'll remember the beauty of the world...